Currently we are starting our transition into this new adventure
of life. We've turned in our resignation
letters, started to sell things, and are beginning to tell people good
bye. We move to Richmond to start
training in mid-January. Although this
is an exciting time it has proven unexpectedly challenging as well.
I guess you don't realize the security blanket that you
create for yourself until its being unfolded.
Leah and I quickly found that we have comfort and security in our jobs,
money, belongings, medical insurance, apartment, family, friends, social
status, and even in our breath of life.
Many of these things are going to be gone or temporarily put on hold
during our transition and we created lots of worry about the "What ifs?"
As Leah and I both shared our feelings with each other,
God reminded me of Psalm 37:4. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will
give you the desires of your heart." My delight....what is my delight in? If I delight only in Him...then why am I
worried about my stuff? Christ said each
day has enough stuff to be worried about so entrust tomorrow to God...He takes
care of the birds and the grass, He'll surely take care of us. If my delight is only in God himself, then
everything else is extra. All the stuff
in my false security blanket = extra! These are blessings from God and its by
these things that I'm supposed to trust in Him and rest in His security and
have Him be my delight.
I had let His blessings become my security rather than
the Giver of the blessings being my delight.
I love the promise of that verse, "...and He will
give you the desires of your heart."
Because He gives me the desires of my heart(which are extra) I find my
security in Him who supplies my needs.
I'm beginning to realize more and more that a huge step
in discipleship is to not have situational faith. No matter what the situation, I will not lean
on my own understandings, but trust wholly in the Lord.
So what about you? Are you trusting more in the gifts or the
Giver of gifts?
In Christ's Love,
Andrew
